MONday

Ok, it is monday... I hate it...

Because I must go to school. Damnit...

Spend my Sunday rotting at home, doing nothing. Wonder why am I lucky in game but not in real life. Hahhs... anyways...

Hmms, looking forward to school breaktime, because we discovered a Lao Di Fang, A smoking place where we found safe... cool! Hmms, I am cutting down on cigges le, 2 per day is too destroying I guess. Alrights...

:D Dry and empty :D

Lonely days to come as usual

Yes!

1st of all, I am quite happy today, was on my way out for dinner with my friends when my mom ask me if I smoke, then I told her yes casually, surprised...expected. GREAT! Not much discussion on that, she told me in 1986 times...1 pack of cigges was sold at 1.50 per pack...then she advised me to quit A.s.a.p. which is mission impossible...most I cut down.

Hmms, I emo ? gosh, everyone have got emotions, but I think I controlled it rather well...no swings on others...anyways...

Taking puffs on the rootop yesterday with sean and Ben, was great too... quite like that feeling of standing so high. But I guess it would be a bad idea to get drunk at a rooftop, what if ones get drunk and decides to jump. Lols!

Today meet Des and pills talk cock and dinner, found out shocking stories..Aww... It really made me believe that the ones you really love, can bring you up or take you down...Which in most cases...take us down...Fuck!

:D Happy Man :D

Updates...

It is time for me to update again...

Ever since school started, I seems to be more busy, entertaining lesser of those thgts. Which is good to me. I think that my decision to walk out of that was good, so eventually I deleted everything which allows me to have thgts. But what really bother was the memories...which I could not block and delete...Lols.

Anyways, this week is ending real soon. Looking forward to the weekend break. Wonder where can I go. Seriously need to chill.

I am wondering if I should quit smoking too, because I got quite sick of that and I am starting to get broke. But on the 2nd thgt, I am not sure... each puff is an enjoyment...or rather it made me feel lighter. Whoo...

Alrights...Cyas...

School

Finally,

School starts...and I cant believe 2 months and 1 week passed so damn fast. Wtf was I doing back then, I seems to do little things only.

Alrights, it is really hard to understand how come my whole group of friends got low in confidence and got rejections...Sad. Now girls are damn diff to chase...Nabei... I think the taiwan rejects are the top grade spore. Lols.... :D

I think there's no why to falling for a person. Even when nothing seems to be right, got a quote from previous learning.. "Things don't have to be perfect for me to love" Think only some will get it. It is hard to force your way to forget a person. Fucking hell lame reasons... not good enough is the typical ones. Being too good is the fresh one. Nv had I heard this 1 till recently...

Great. To the main reason why I update today. Cause I had a fun time last week while clubbing. To peeps out there... Clubbing are not just for DESPOS... I guess only despos think themselves that it is place for despos...suck that.

We only danced among ourselves and laughed our way. Chilled and relax... So I didnt get to see any prob with that, anyway...continue soon. Gonna get in game with friends....

Alrights...EveryDay is a New Day.

HAhhs...

I think it is time to update a little. Today...Tuesday, force myself to wake up early...11.30am...Wtf.

I got no choice as I booked 3 sessions of Ttt and then I got my FTT, so... I stayed in SSDC from 1.30 till evening. Recently not in very happy mood and I tio this siao kia during 2nd Ttt...sitting beside me, fucking hell...I am not joking, he is retarded. He make funny noises and farted...nabei, I really cant take it.. so I stared at him for the 2 minutes and it really wasted my time.

Hmms, hard work eventually...you know ? I passed my FTt on the 4th attempt today. Quite happy. But still not in a good mood.

HOWEVER, I think I should just treat everyday as a new day. Possible ? No idea, never know if I never try. aww...I need some happy songs...anyone to send me ? Hahhs..

Rights...Supper and smking session now...Cyasss...

A mixture of sadness and happiness

WTF

Yoz.

Just got home from fisherman village after a drinking session with my friends. Was great as I felt troubled recently.

Today, I saw the dead body that went missing, that Indian guy who got drowned. He was about 2 arms length away from me. It is rather gross, and it spoiled my mood seriously. I joked about it hours ago and indeed I saw what I joke. Cool.

For my friends who cared. Sorry for smoking so heavily. Because...Once upon a time... I thought I found my motivation in life, and time to time, they are just set-ups... there isnt any more things that I find as motivation anymore. Life seriously just sucks...

And...I just dont know how many times must I fall before I start to learn... Why ?
Maybe it is just because mankind just dont want to stay at the level they are at, they are constantly asking and seeking for more. Never satisfied, but there isnt nothing wrong about that right ? moreover, I am just seeking something that everyone simple already have.

FK...How I wished that indian was me...Just me...

O_o no more.

Faith N Fear

Hi,

Recently I questioned myself, can faith and fear co-exist ? And I still don't have an answer.

But for what I think, I think that by... right they cannot, but if they happen to, you will be confused with your own decision and eventually feel lost. Had been a heavy smoker for these few days and I felt nothing about it. I think I will just go on and on...

To summarise this week, I think it had been a good one, because I did quite a lot of excerise, gyming, soccer and jogging. I got myself tired and saved myself from the sleepless nights. However, there are instances whereby I can't get to sleep even though I am tired, I shall look into what else can I do. Arhahhs...yeap.

Praying that it all goes well.

Cyas O.o